over it

im sorry.
fucking stupid=me
have to get over my mind
have to get over my insecurities
when i cry a river i have to build a bridge and get fucking over it

you prove to me over and over how much you love me. your always there for me. and your always going to be there. you come with me when i go somewhere. and i always push it away. i doubt it. i forget about it. i never believe it. i hope i realize that i do believe it. in it. it. because you are amazing. youre never going to let go. your going to take care of me. thank you.
im sorry i broke so many ornaments and left you to clean up.
im sorry if i do this again.
i need to take control of myself.
i need to know what i see.
i need to calm down.
i need to relax.

i love you.

Gigantic fudge and apples.

Finally left. Went on a trip with my man, of course we got lost. I always get lost, but I always know the way. Missed an exist? It was dark. the lights where blinding. The road slippery. The speed eternal. The hotel was full of snowmobilers, all there at 3 in the morning, all gone when we woke up. It was a double rape. The pool was too busy. The snow deep. Downtown was curt and spacious. It was a golden town with beautiful skies. Radiant hot springs and avalanche warnings. We stopped to burn the snow and washed away the ski track path. Then we went to see Avatar.

Avatar.
wicked movie!
wicked movie.